From my Journal 20130222Fri

I was in desolation for a couple of weeks and didn't realize that I was... many things, worldly and personal concerns, all worked to obscure it from my soul. It was as if I suddenly woke up and found my day had turned into night. It resulted in a near disaster for me.

I came close to despair thinking it was somehow just fine to cross over the line that will turn my hope into ashes. I was lost and only realized it when my Savior told me I was lost.

So I stopped. 

Then I had a quiet time with Jesus, my All, and when I did, I found that my way back is to get back to my Lenten observances.

So that's what i'm going to do.

From my Journal 20130204Mon

I heard Holy Mass with my Lola from 12pm to 1pm in the Ledesma Hall on the 9th floor of Makati Medical Center yesterday.

It was very good.

Somehow I had a glimpse of what Saint Peter was feeling on Mount Tabor with James and John when he said to Jesus during the Transfiguration, "Lord, its good that we are here!"

For it was very good!

It was so good to me that after the final blessing I was left wondering where all the time had gone and why there was not enough Holy Mass there.

For it was indeed very good to be there with my Lola and with my Lola with Christ Jesus and in His Light: our Way, our Truth, and our Life.

When I come back to visit my Lola today or tomorrow or very soon, it shall be very well. There shall be a momentary sadness but also a certain sense of the timeless.

For I have now come to understand that the time we spent yesterday during Holy Mass was never lost - just like the times we spent together during our life in this world.

I love my Lola.

Yes indeed, my Lola and I had many good times together, especially while I was growing up.

And if those moments spent together in love and togetherness seem fleeting - it is only because our world is veiled by time.

All those times with loved ones we wished had the quality of forever, like Peter's own expression on Tabor, are moments that seem lost to us from across the veil of time but when viewed by everlasting Light of faith is never really lost to us - they are kept for us.

For these precious moments are the treasures spoken of by Jesus in the Gospel, they are those treasures in heaven neither thief could steal nor tyrant take away.

And they are very good because our Savior is very good.