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Reservations

Some recovering addicts I know say and think "reservation" like it were a hotel reservation.

"What's up with that?", I'd say to myself: Reservation is a thing tucked neatly right at the very corner of the mind that says I shall relapse if this and that happens to me.

It has nothing to do with space and has everything to do with time. It is not a where but a when.

At one NA meeting, I tried to save a seat for a buddy of mine once and was told I had reservations. What's up with that?

It is a very good thing to clear the mind of reservations.

But to do this, one must exert a certain amount of concentration to determine for one's self what a reservation really is and then invest some time in meditation to find out if one has any.

A good relapse prevention plan should always involve this as an exercise in prudence.

That's my own take on the matter.

RECOVERY MEANS: I never have to use again.